…Upon my arrival home I was in utter disbelief to see what I saw: cabinets open, movies missing from the entertainment center across the room, and clothes scattered in the middle of the living room floor, Jordan’s clothes. From around the corner came Jordan carrying boxes from my, our bedroom. “What are you doing?” I asked as she briskly walked past me placing the boxes down in the living room.
“I’m packing my things,” she said quickly.
“You’re what? Why?”
“Why? Do you even have to ask that question you pompous ass? If you would have cared to return my phone call this afternoon you would know that I’ll be staying with Sarah for a while until I can find a place of my own. Until then my things will be in storage.”
Shit, that’s right she called, this morning, I can’t believe I forgot to call her back, I thought to my self. Jordan didn’t stop what she was doing. I’m convinced that my presence there only made her work faster and harder.
“I forgot to call you back. Honestly, I meant to, I just got busy.”
“Do the lies never stop with you, Sam?” Jordan stopped what she was doing, facing me with her hands on her hips, “you didn’t forget and you didn’t get busy. You went to see her. Have you forgotten who you’ve been seeing for damn near ten years? I followed you this afternoon when you left your office. How could you Sam, How could you fuck her behind my back?”…
… “Jordan, please stop this. Can we just sit down and talk for a few minutes,” I pleaded with her. “The last thing I want is for you to move out. Please just talk with me.”
“Talk with you! That’s what I’ve been trying to do for the last nine damn months. You haven’t wanted to talk, but now you want to fucking talk.” Jordan was yelling and still trembling. “I trusted you Sam, I stayed with you while you were screwing things up in college. I moved everywhere you did so that we could stay together. I put my life and career on hold so that we could be together, and this is the thanks I get. You sleep around with a woman, not a stranger, but a woman who broke your heart and left you for someone else. Have you forgotten all of this, or do you simply not care?” Jordan was holding a snow-globe in her right hand, shaking it at me as she spoke. “I wonder if you were fucking her when we went to London last summer? When you gave me this. When you told me that you would never do anything to hurt me.”
“No!” I shook my head. It was a lie, I had been with Chris by then. “I love you Jordan. I’m sorry. God, I’m so sorry. Please, I’ll stop seeing her, I promise. We can make it work, please don’t do this.”
“Don’t do this! Sam, you’ve already done it. We can’t make it work! You won’t leave her! You’ll keep fucking her! I’ll never be able to trust you again!” I started to take a step toward her. “Don’t, Sam! Don’t come near me.” Jordan was begging me to leave her alone, still holding the snow-globe in her hand.
I took another step towards her, quickly ducking as she threw the snow-globe. It shattered against the wall right where my head had been. The water and glitter from inside sprayed the side of my face. What was left of the blue and silver London skyline slid along the wall and shattered further once it hit the floor. The remnants of the snow-globe lay shattered and crushed beneath the soles of my shoes as I slowly stepped back towards the bedroom door. I could hear the sound of water seeping between the small gaps of the hardwood living room floor.
Everything fell silent in my head. There were no more words to be spoken. The only noises that I could hear were the thoughts in my own mind, the memories of nine years flashing into focus in front of my eyes, superimposed over my view of Jordan sitting in a fetal crouch against the far living room wall, her face buried in her hands, sobbing uncontrollably. I could not hear her; I could only see her. I wanted so badly to hold her but I could not go to her, I could not seem to muster the strength to move my feet and legs in her direction.
I didn’t say a word. The shock and fear set in on my conscience almost immediately. Jordan stayed where she sat, still shaking with rage sobbing quietly. A cloud of silence fell over the both of us, neither moving a muscle….